12/17/11

I don't think I have enough thank you cards to go around. (So I made one BIG one. )




(That angel?   She lives next door....)



I’ve learned so many things on this little journey I like to call “saving my own life.”   (Again, for God's sake...)   I’m not just talking about changing taillights; fixing the toilet handle; programming channel changers or remembering to check the little do-hickey on top of the oil tank so that you don’t run out of OIL on the first 15-degree Saturday in December.  (That resulted in a $550 bill.  Apparently the oil company doesn’t care that you had $52.00 in your checking account. )


No, I’m not talking about those things.


I’m talking about the fact that God works in mysterious and marvelous ways.  I know, I know, I don’t talk about God much on this blog.  But that doesn’t mean that He doesn’t live in my house; because He does.  And even though I’ve often joked that He loves to shake up my world and smile, I also know that He goes out of His way to make sure I’m okay.


I’ve often felt carried through some of the more painful events in my life, and for that I am thankful.  But I’ve also realized that sometimes angels grab you by the shoulders and drag you along.


Last year, my angels had their work cut out for them.  I spent each month just praying that I would make it; that I could pay my bills and help my children in any way I could.  I spent each night lying alone in my bed, mustering the strength to continue my journey, and would discover each day that I would not be traveling alone.

And on those particular days that I felt broken, I would find a card in my mailbox or a package on my front porch.   When I was pacing the floor trying to figure out what I could possibly sell to pay for Sassy’s car repairs, or some other necessary bill, I would discover that someone had sent me a donation on Paypal; and I would cry.

I just want to thank every angel out there who has held me, comforted me, listened to me and grabbed me by the shoulders and pulled me up.  And even though this journey is still in its infancy, I have finally gone from crawling to walking upright.  And for that I am grateful.



And so Sharon, Amy, Braja, Elise, Lynn, Kevin, Leslie, MaryAnne, Anne, Suzy, my darling Anna, Sherri, Stacey, Janie, Rene, Joy, Brian, Chris, Cora, Eric, Sheila (the best bff a girl could have) and anyone else I have surely forgotten; you are the best examples of friends.  




I thank you all from the bottom of my heart, and I wish you the Merriest of Christmases, the Happiest of Hanukkahs and the Fantastical  of Festivuses.  (Now, I'm off to try to pay it forward..)






(thanks for the pillow.  It reminds me that in the end, love is all we need. But that love?  It's the love you have to have for yourself.)




15 comments:

Brian Miller said...

big hugs...proud to be on that list friend...

SkylersDad said...

You are a wonderful person, thank you so much for the nice note.

Hugs

Ingrid said...

I never expected a thank you for the pillow....but thank you :)
You have made me laugh on days when I really needed to laugh and I love you for that. Have a blessed Christmas.

Suzy said...

This was a post I needed to read as I'm doing a fair amount of praying myself. I'm convinced that even though the prayers make me feel better, I think I'm taken care of in spite of them. And for that I'm very grateful.

What's that great Buddhist saying? "It will all work out in the end. If it hasn't worked out, it's not the end."

It might be the Mayans who said that and I MIGHT have heard it on The Big Bang Theory but you get the general idea.

Sherri said...

You are loved Honey. (((HUGS)))

Thank you for being the most awesome teacher and Mom on the planet :)

Charmaine said...

Hey!!! I've been out of circulation "hooking" husband... Are you single now? I've missed almost 2 years. Egads!

Sparkless said...

And thank you for making me smile and laugh just about every time I read your blog!

Cora said...

Aww. You're so sweet. Really. It was no big deal; it's what friends do, right? Here's to a bigger, better, more badass-ier new year for both of us!

((((hugs))))

JennyExplainsItAll.blogspot.com said...

Keep reminding yourself how satisfying it will feel to be looking BACK at these impossible days and how proud of yourself you will feel. Time does go by; every bad day eventually ends. Be kind to yourself and to others (they might be having a worse day!) Dreary Christmases make the others shine even brighter. Now go cuddle the cat!

anymommy said...

My heart. I haven't been there enough, I never am, always all wrapped up in my own problems. But you have been in my heart daily and I have been awed by your strength. So much love to you, we will pull off that roommate thing if it kills us!

The Empress said...

Merry christmas and a very, very happy new Year.

We love you.

slow panic said...

What wonderful friends. You deserve every single kindness.

Ann Imig said...

I, too, feel like I could/should always do more--so I really appreciated this.

Love to you.

The Stiletto Mom said...

I didn't do anything you wouldn't have done if the shoe was on the other foot. I love you tons and I'm so glad our paths crossed. You? Are amazing.

Leslie said...

Aww...sweetie...I feel the same way about you. With our mirror lives, you are my separated at birth twin. Your strength and insight always keep me afloat. Hugs.