I keep my guardian angels PRETTY busy. Or is it the other way around???

I gathered boxes, newspapers, packing tape, sharpies and started packing… again.

I tried not to think about how overwhelming it is to pack your whole life into boxes.

I tried not to.

I wrapped my vases, blue glass collection, photo albums, cookbooks, glasses, pitchers, candlesticks and my mother’s glass collection and placed them carefully in the egg carton boxes I had procured from the supermarket.  My best friend came over and emptied out my linen closet, my bookshelves, and various nooks and crannies and labeled each box that she packed.  

We worked quietly, lost in our own thoughts and the task at hand.  I wanted to laugh.  I wanted to joke.  I wanted to exchange witty banter and laugh out loud until tears streamed down our faces.  

But we worked quietly, lost in our own thoughts and the task at hand.   This was the third time she stood by me, helping me pack up my world.  Fortunately by now I have managed to take a little off the top and off the sides so that my world fits neatly into a small, three-bedroom apartment. 

I noticed her sitting on tops of some boxes of books leafing through an old photo album.  She dropped it on the floor and grabbed another, smiling at the glimpses into my younger life.  I watched her on the boxes, and finally sat down on the floor.

“There have been so many things that have been painful these last four years,” I said, “But one thing that is so hard to get used to is not having a place of my own.  A place that I can really call home, where I can have my gardens, sit on the porch and relax, you know?  That’s been a very, very tough thing.”

She looked at me thoughtfully. 

“You know what?  Your home is there,” she said as she pointed at my heart.  “Your home is right there in your heart.  And if you can make it through ALL of this and realize that, then you can do just about anything.”

I looked at her, “Oh my GOD, you’re right!  And you know what?  I am about this close to being there.  Now, let’s get off our asses and finish this.”


One crazed mommy said...

Your friend is very wise. Wishing you the best, and hopefully your next real move will be a permanent one for you!!

Joanna Jenkins said...

You have one of the biggest hearts I know so your home is VERY big indeed.
Moving is never fun but I hope this move will be your last for a very long time.
Cheering you on, xo jj

Gigi said...

Oh my friend, I know the pain of moving - and of wanting a house of your own - but, your friend is right. And one day soon, both of us will have our houses and gardens - we just need to be patient.

Sue said...

I've missed your blogs. My life has been crazy since March, and my hopes are that maybe it will be less crazy soon? Whatever, we do what we have to do. I moved a couple of months ago. But I do have to say, I'm in love with where I live now. I can watch the sunset every night and the seagulls fly back to the beach. Here's hoping for brighter days ahead my friend. Please take care!

Mocadeaux said...

One day soon, I can just feel it. In the meantime, enjoy your summer adventure and know that lots and lots of people are pulling for you.

Anonymous said...

Best friends are the best. I miss mine so much, she died six years ago and cannot be replaced. She "got" me and still loved me.....Good luck with your move. You're going to be fine.

Anonymous said...

A&W posts:

Been there done that -3 times in 2.5 years and the first stop had no closet so I kept all of my clothes, belts, shoes Etc. in my Ford Explorer for 4 months. It worked and I got some laughs out of co-workers - I am in Sales and we always say we are on the road so much we "Live in our cars". Yep and when I said it - I meant literally! Ha ha! Although it was the toughest years of my life - I knew I was headed in the right direction and wasn't looking back - I just chalked it up as an adventure!

Well the light at the end of my tunnel was not a train.... It was a peaceful new home in a loving little town on the Chesapeake Bay - PERSEVERANCE PAYS

Hannah Anderson said...

hope you are doing good now...
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