11/10/09

I do cry once in a while...only a little...


I dreamed of my mother last night.

It was an odd dream, it had no rhyme nor reason. My mother was living in an unfamiliar house- one filled with antiques and paintings that were made by us - her children. I watched her intently as she spoke to me - almost as if we were neighbors, as if we haven’t been separated by space, time and that nasty inconvenient tiny matter of her death.


Our conversation was insignificant – I can’t even remember what it was. I DO remember that I had an intense feeling that I wanted to hold on to her and never let her go. I knew in my heart she was dead. I watched her intently as she spoke, and joined her in laughing at something I can’t remember.


I’m not sure what this dream signifies. All I know is that for a few brief moments in the dark recesses of the night, I was wrapped in her love.


And it felt good.


76 comments:

singamaraja said...

Singamaraja visiting your blog

Captain Dumbass said...

Doesn't matter what it meant, only what you felt.

And I still think your mom's hot.

LegalMist said...

I'm glad you were able to laugh in your dream, and to feel her love. I'm sure that's exactly what she intended.

I've never had a dream like this. Sometimes I wish I would. About my grandpa. My friend who died in a horrible car crash... others I've lost and miss so much.

Thanks for sharing. Keep feeling her love. It is always there for you.

Alex said...

I like that you had a laugh together...sometimes those dreams are just what you need.

Kathleen said...

Ah, I'm so happy for you that you had a visit from your Mom. It's been 4 years, and my mom hasn't appeared in my dreams yet. Not sure why.

Beautiful image--being wrapped in love.

TMCPhoto said...

I dream like that about my Dad every now and then. In my dreams I always get a big hug from him. Those Dreams always seem to come right when they are most needed.

With all that you and your family have been going through lately, you probably needed a good *hug* from your Mom and she came into your dream to give it to you.

Secretia said...

Some people would believe in the afterlife, and day that her soirit visited you, which is why the dream seemed so real. It was good for you, even the crying part.
keep your loved ones close.

Secretia

Frau said...

I hope that dream was just what the doctor ordered. To continue to feel her love with you no matter what.

Zip n Tizzy said...

She'll always be with you.

(and I just love her too!)

WeaselMomma said...

Take comfort in these small moments and know that your mom is never far away because she is in your heart.

Ladybird World Mother said...

She's always there. xxxx

Vodka Logic said...

Maybe the message wasn't important just the feeling of love.
xx

Sorcerer said...

dreams have a way of talking..
Alchemist say its the way universe talks to us..
and loved ones always...watch us :) and care for us:)

Mrs. E said...

I'm glad she visits your dreams. She must know when you need her!

Alix said...

I love your dream VM. You do know that some day the dream will be reality, right? Some day... That's the joy in believing. I think in the meantime, dreams are just little reminders that there is much much more waiting on the other side. And death is never a final goodbye.

XO

Irish Gumbo said...

I'm with the Captain on this one. Beautiful...

Not The Rockefellers said...

I agree with Vodka Logic..the words were not the important part

You are safe with her watching over you...

Peace ~ Rene

Helena Halme said...

What a lovely dream. xx

Brian Miller said...

and that i think was the point..and it made me feel all warm inside. smiles.

Beth said...

I love this. I wish my father would be in my dreams more often. It has been so long that I feel him slipping away. What I wouldn't give to have a moment where I felt all wrapped up in him one more time.

Sara J. Henry said...

I dream about my dad sometimes and it's enormously comforting. I like to think this is his way of visiting me. Thanks for sharing this.

Jeff D'Antonio said...

Dreams like that are such a gift - to have her back again for a brief moment frozen in time.

*sigh*

If only we could hold on to those fleeting moments for just a little longer.

Dawn@Embracing the Ordinary Life said...

I think it was exactly what it was...a comfortable moment where you held on and embraced her love...I wish I had my Grammy back!

The Good Cook said...

I think you do know what the dream meant.. you said it at the end of your post - you were wrapped in love. How lucky you are that your mother visits you. How comforting it must be to know she is still near.

ps. your mother is lovely!!

Scary Mommy said...

What a wonderful dream, and how sweet to wake up remembering the feeling.

Laggin said...

It meant she misses you too.

Tammy Howard said...

Dreams like this are so powerful. (and your mom is so beautiful...) I love that her 'dream house' was filled with paintings her children had made. So special.

Maman Tattoo said...

My mom used to tell me each time she dreamt of her mom, which died at 47, two years before my birth.

Her dreams were are pretty much like yours, and she'd remember her feelings more then what happened.

Anna See said...

i'm glad you got to see her last night. i know what you mean about the dreams being strange. i've only had a few w/ my mom, but i realize something is amiss while i'm dreaming. and our house is never our real house. hmmm.

Joanie M said...

That's your mom, checking in to make sure you're behaving yourself. :)

Carol said...

What a beautiful dream to share and for it to end feeling wrapped in her love.

Janie at Sounding Forth said...

Awesome...

As to your threat on my blog, just brrrrrriiiiinnnnnngggggg it!


Heifer.

Kathy B! said...

There's a part of her with you forever. I believe that. We just aren't good at letting those parts out so they have to come to you in your dreams.

for a different kind of girl said...

I think of it as an amazing blessing that those we love so much can still visit us in our dreams. That love is always with us.

Angie Ledbetter said...

A beautiful slice of grace for you, plus a little confirmation that she's in a heavenly place doing what she loved doing? Hugs

phd in yogurtry said...

I like that the house was unfamiliar (because we don't know where she exactly, do we) but was filled with memorabilia and artwork of her children. Her location is unknown, but nearby, and she is keeping you close.

confused homemaker said...

I dream about family like this too, I love the house we are in it's bathed in light. It's a good feeling, bittersweet when you wake up.

SkylersDad said...

I consulted my dream interpretation book and it said you need to pass the love along now, so bake me cookies and send them to me.

Everyone wins!

Kathy's Klothesline said...

I dreamed of my son last night. It was very real and we were just together and talking. I cannot remember any words that were said. Just a feeling of peace and love. When I woke I lay there trying to recapture the dream, but couldn't. The feeling, however did linger and I am in a better place today. Tomorrow will mark the one month anniversary of his death.

Christine said...

Heart Warming...

Sprite's Keeper said...

The topic may not stick, but the feeling does.
I need to call my mom now.
xoxo

An Open Heart said...

I love to get those kinds of visits...I agree with the lot, she was stopping by to let you know she is watching, guarding and loving you and your family....hold onto the feeling of love until the next visit.


S

LPC said...

What a beautiful picture.

lifelove'n'wine said...

I'm so glad you got to be with your mother in your dream and feel her love.

Steven Anthony said...

I have had moments like this since my mothers death....I truly believe it is there way of letting us know they are still with us...how much love you mother must have for you to reach across time and space and give you a hug...just wonderful!

enjoy it, relish it...a mothers love, nothing really beats it..

peace

staceyjwarner said...

ARGH! I want to read this post but the duplo ad keeps blowing up and covering it every time I close it....VERY FRUSTRATING....

I'll be back! That ad needs to be put on a time out or something...along with that bar ad that floats up your blog, although that one normally behaves.

much love

Sue said...

Don't worry about what the dream meant,just rejoice in what you felt! Take care.

Anndi said...

Everytime I see a picture of your mom, I always think about how beautiful she was. And I know, that not only was she beautiful on the outside (as Captain and Irish have stated) but she was beautiful on the inside... she mothered and nurtured you into becoming the pretty awesome woman we all have grown to love.

I had a dream about MY mom last week. She was standing in the kitchen, she had giant freezer bags of minced meat and she was getting ready to cook up a bunch of meals for me. And it made me feel like everything was going to be alright. That's what it's about... Mom stopping by to give you some love.

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Maggie said...

I do believe that everytime you dream of someone who has passed away it does mean something! That they are with you taking good care of you from up above. :)

gretchen said...

Your mom was a beauty! Gorgeous picture.

I dream about my dead parents all the time. And about their house which I grew up in. I like to think it's my subconscious's way of keeping them present and active in my life. In my dreams I can still tough and hear and smell them. Amazing.

Meeko Fabulous said...

Maybe that was her way of checking in on you to make sure you were ok?

I've seen you on Steven Anthony's blog and curiosity finally got the better of me. :) I'm your newest follower.

http://meekothedisgruntledsecretary.blogspot.com

Meeko Fabulous said...

Once I figure out how to . . . Some stuff is blocked at work . . . Not that I read blogs at work or anything . . .

CarrieAnn said...

I believe that your mom is comforting you, especially with all of the stalker drama. Isn't it nice to know that she is still watching over you?

Sheila said...

My mom visited me last night in a dream too. I have been dithering (one of her words) about whether or not to apply for a new position at work. In my dream, we talked about nothing significant. Just before I woke up, she told me "just do it. You'll get it or you won't but you will never know unless you apply." I applied today.
Each of your posts about your mom bring her back to me for just a moment...thank you~

only a movie said...

Very glad to read that your mom is visiting. It's so right that the words don't matter. You got her message. xo

just making my way said...

She's so beautiful. I think I dreamed of my Mom only once, but I know what you mean about that feeling.

Maureen@IslandRoar said...

What a lovely gift that you got to see her so clearly in a dream. That's happened to me with my Grandma...
And you've showed that photo before; she was truly gorgeous!

adrienne said...

Yes, I know this feeling.

otin said...

You need to read my Thursday story! It kind of has something to do with this type of subject!

nanny said...

My mom came to me in a dream after she had been gone for months,,,,it made me finally feel "better"
So real!!!

Mrsblogalot said...

I wish I could order up a dream like that.

Who knows why or how but Moms know when you need them-even in dreams!

flutter said...

Your mom is so clear in her communication to you.

♥ Braja said...

It means nothing more than you love her and miss her :) xoxo

Lanie said...

How sweet you had a dream of her. My mom passed away one month ago tomorrow. I just want to hear her voice one more time. I would love a dream like that one.

Stopping in from SITS to say hello!
~Lanie

Sarah Brown said...

I LOVE when you "FEEL" the dream that you are having.
Hope you have a great day today.
Stopping by from SITS=)

S3XinthePantry said...

You brought tears to my eyes! I am calling my Mom today (we don't talk often enough and she's the greatest).

Love the photo...such an unreadable expression.

Glad you were able to spend more time with her!

Marinka said...

Love Captain Dumbass's comment. Wish I hug you right now.

Ellie Belen said...

Thanks VM. The loving relationship you shared with your mom comes through. My mom is 78 years old and a wonderful, fun loving woman. Your posts reminded me to look at my mom more closely and keep rekindling the spark between a mom and her daughter,

JaelCustomDesigns said...

I dream of my grandmother sporadically and she raised me.
I get a little down when I think about her but, I feel that she pops into my dreams to let me know that she's still with me in spirit.

I always say she's watching over me, and when msking decisions I actually consider what she would do or what she might have thought.

I think your mom just wanted you to know that even though she's not physically here, she's with you in spirit. Beautiful Picture!

Birdie3008 said...

so great that you had that moment with your mom again in your dreams. She must have missed you too.

Stacie said...

What a wonderful post. i am lucky to still have my mom and I think I need to call her right now.

Awake In Rochester said...

Thanks for sharing!

(((Hugs)))

abby jenkins said...

I am up earlier than usual this morning as I had an amazing dream about my mother, days like today I hate waking up. She seemed so real. It was nice to have her with me again, even if it was in my sleep.

Maybe she is hanging out with your mom, having some libations? :^D

bingoboat.com said...

I can imagine the peaceful feeling you had with your dream. Feels so great to wrapped by loving arms especially from people who we miss dearly.

The Empress said...

Gosh, what a beautiful woman.
And I believe dreams are messages sent to us...oh,yes, I do.